Lim Kim - Happy Me (original version by ECO) ost Reply 1994

Here the English translation lyrics :

I met you after going/through several break ups/Maybe that’s why I was/more scared to start with you/But getting to know someone/and loving someone/How great would it be if you were/the last person to do so? Like me/Even during my busy day, when/I hear your voice for a moment/I wonder if you feel/like you’re with me too
If only you were there when/I come home every night/Then your heart could rest in/my embrace after a long day/Just love me like you love me/now, if only you don’t change/The person who could have all/of me is you,/I won’t be shaken
Sometimes, you/feel sorry about/your future that’s not set/But don’t forget, I love you, if/I’m with you, it’s a happy me Even during my busy day, when/I hear your voice for a moment/I wonder if you feel like/you’re with me tooIf only you were there when/I come home every night/Then your heart could rest in/my embrace after a long day/Just love me like you love me/now, if only you don’t change/The person who could have all/of me is you,/I won’t be shaken
Sometimes, you/feel sorry about/your future that’s not set/But don’t forget, I love you, if/I’m with you, it’s a happy me I want to throw away the love that/the world decided upon with/many expectations Like your/heart, I want to always stay/at the same place And be another/you, for the precious you Just love me/like you love me/now, if only you don’t change/The person who could have all/of me is you, I won’t be shaken/Are you feeling sorry about/your future that is not set yet?You’re not alone now/Don’t forget, if I’m with you,/it’s a happy me 

This song should be having sort of love-relieved and life-cherised feeling in it. This should be one happy song. Just like the title.

Unfortunately, i don’t feel it. I read the lyrics, i know the meaning of those words. And indeed, it is a happy song. But the thing is, i always get teary everytime hearing this song. especially this Lim Kim version.

After going through a long and painful weekend with Answer Me 1994 episode 14 and 15, you would feel what i feel. Moreover if you are team Chilbong. You must understand what i babble about.

God, drama, why..

Why this series should be soo good that i might feel that my life peaks on weekend lately.

And, why.. why this chilbong character should be soo great even after he got so painfully heartbreaking and bittersweet first love..

Why..

Damn this drama got me so emotional that i think i am half psychotic for rooting for chilbong so much.

Haha.

Terlepas dari drama stuff and chilbongie-possessed self, lagu ini  punya sisi nostalgic yang kuat. You know, that feeling, saat kamu melintas di koridor SMA yang lama kamu tinggalkan dan sejenak menoleh ke deretan bangku di dalam kelas dimana sejuta memori bersarang di sana. kamu ingat obrolan-obrolan beragam—dari guru galak, senior ganteng, latihan ekskul, drama roman di dalam kelas, sampai update gosip terbaru di lingkungan sekolah. Atau kamu akan ingat keriuhan kantin di jam istirahat, saking penuhnya kamu sampai bisa mengunyah snack sambil berdiri, membaca catatan-catatan random di mading sekolah. Or, even, your memory of a first love too.

I played this song a lot in the rushing train on the way back home.

You know, as the farms, and fields, houses and trees ran passing by, you suddenly remember about rainy days in the youth when the soil smelled so fresh, or words—the painful and sweet ones, or faces you cherised the most, or the long lost love.

In the language i don’t even understand, this song is powerful enough to knock my sense.

And makes me cry again.

Been awhile

Hiatus ini yang terlama. Saya tenggelam dalam kelelahan pekerjaan dan keengganan untuk menulis lagi. Tho, sebenarnya saya kangen sekali.
Berdiam di depan layar komputer. Menunduk sambil tekun melukis kata di dalam jurnal. Kebahagiaan personal yang kadang nggak semua orang bisa mengerti.

Then now, i'm home.
Bersiap menyambut hari raya dalam nuansa masa kecil penuh nostalgia. Siang terik penuh teriakan bocah-bocah bermain. Malam dengan langit jernih penuh taburan bintang berkerlipan malu-malu.
Alhamdulillah.
How's life at you?  

indrayanti, suatu hari..

Perjalanan ini berawal dari playful banter kami—aku, sita dan novi, di suatu siang beraroma belerang saat kami mencoba keluar dari keriuhan kota di hari minggu dan minggir sejenak dari tuntutan kerjaan.

I thought it might not gonna happen soon, me travelling again to Yogyakarta. But, it happened actually.

Jadilah, akhir April, dengan modal seadanya, saya meluncur ke Jogja.

To be honest, there’s something familiar about Jogjakarta in my eyes. Which i always wonder what it is. The heat? Becak-becak? Aroma kultur keraton yang kuat? Atau aura lain tentang kota ini yang sukses membuat saya kerap rindu untuk kembali.

Pada trip ‘maksa’ kali ini, saya diajak Sita mengunjungi pantai Indrayanti. Salah satu sisi cantik dari beberapa lainnya di garis pantai Gunung Kidul.

Tepus, Wonosari.

Siapa sangka di balik Gunung Kidul yang terkenal kering dan nggak bersahabat itu tersimpan permata pariwisata yang belum banyak tersentuh media.  

I knew about these beaches from the last pages of Tasaro GK’s novel : Galaksi Kinanthi. Yang salah satu latar tempatnya memang di daerah Gunung Kidul. Sejak baca novel itu, ingin rasanya menelusuri garis pantai Gunung Kidul : Baron, Kukup, Sundhak, Wedhi Ombo, Drini dll.

One step at a time, Ve.

We reached Indrayanti after 3 hours of motorbike ride.
Kelelahan yang langsung terbayar aroma matahari bertemu dengan lembut pasir pantai warna khaki. Mereka diterjang ombak nakal laut selatan yang galak dan nggak bisa diajak bercanda. Tapi ombak itu.. andai saya surfer pasti jejingkrakan lihat ombak besar bergulung-gulung cantik seperti itu.

si karang lintah telungkup

maksud hati capturing ombak tapi apa daya amateur view ini yang tercapture, but, isn't it pretty? :)

We played awhile.. the beach wasn’t quite packed karena kebanyakan pengunjung adalah warga lokal Jogja dan sekitarnya. Panas. But worth it. Sempat naik ke atas karang—yang buat saya bentuknya mirip lintah telungkup, dan bisa glance around ke beberapa pantai yang membentang sepanjang garis selatan Gunung Kidul ini.

Indrayanti, dari atas karang lintah telungkup

indrayanti, suatu hari..

  Cantik. And quite untouchable.

Terima kasih, Sita, for this rare chance. And can’t wait for another unexpected trip or the opportunity to finally comeback here, someday. And explore other beauties from the Southern part of Mighty Yogyakarta.

A city that never fails to surprise me.

keeping them in

meninggalkan April yang sepi kata walau sarat momen berharga.

i was just keeping them in,
not keeping them written.

walau pada akhirnya saya menyesal karena ada begitu banyak peristiwa yang akan terlupakan nantinya.

April, so long.

please, please, let yourself be recalled once or twice,
because i need you.