i think i'm getting older

a day older.
a month older.
a year older.

"time, where did you go?
why did you leave me here alone?
wait, don't go so fast.."
<chantal kreviazuk>

what it feels like of being 22?
do you feel any different, ve?
*chuckle*
secara keseluruhan : no, i don't feel any different. yet.

Saya masih jadi seorang loner. Dan berbagai sifat lain yang sudah banyak orang kenal.

Then, what it feels like of leaving 21?

Kind of unbelievable.

Usia 21 -dari kontemplasi saya ke belakang- was truly my fighting age.
21 was a tough year.
Toughest so far.
It was when life taught me many different lessons, the true-real side of it. Menghadapi egoisme orang lain, belajar sabar, mengakui kesalahan, senyum tulus, kelelahan, ragu.. Even getting my favorite novels. lol.

Dan semuanya, pengalaman masa lalu, ketidakhadiran 'dia' hari ini (dalam bentuk maya maupun nyata) bikin saya berpikir sudah saatnya berhenti menjadikan 'i' or 'me- as the center of my mindset.
it's time to put other's needs. Or appreciate their presence in our life.

Berhenti selalu membicarakan 'saya'.. mulai memikirkan rencana masa depan, buat sendiri dan adek-adek.
juga berhenti mematung menatapi masa lalu dan kemungkinan mustahil yang berputar di sekelilingnya. Try to accept that he obviously is unaware of you, ve..
admit it fully.

God, bless me for years ahead in Your way.
i'm still far behind my dreams. And still on the way for chasing them.
guide me and purify my will.

And finally..
Happy birthday, me..

Love,
veronia.